Today is my six month anniversary. It seems like longer than that, maybe because I feel like such a different person now than I did then. So much has changed, and I have grown and changed with it.
Marrying Alex has been the best thing I have ever done. I have never been so loved, and the best moments in life are when it’s just him and I hanging out, playing video games or snuggling and sleeping in on Saturday, or going on our weekly pizza date. I am more in love with him now than ever. He is my life partner, my best friend, the person who completes me so well. I need him, and it makes me happy to be with him every day.
Simultaneously, the change that came with marriage has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I have struggled to find a foothold in Midland, struggled to find my place here where I can still be me, struggled without a church home or a job I enjoy, struggled because I can’t find ways to do old hobbies or meet new friends and I so terribly miss all of these things back in Montana. Maybe I will detail it here at some point, I don’t know. I know I have a lot of support at home and afar and there are some amazing people who help me on the days I feel a bit lost, and I am so grateful for them.
And here I find once again that life is rarely just wonderful joy or just full of struggles, but is often an inexplicable paradox of being both things simultaneously.
Life is good. Marriage is wonderful. Friendship is a support that is invaluable. Moving is understandably a challenge which is not always easily faced. Love is bliss. Being Mrs Stitzel is the best.
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